Monday, March 10, 2008

Life...for me. It's just plain ol' boring.

Have I been hiding? No, just trying to keep up with life. It has been relatively uneventful, but so busy. I've read in Arlington's classroom, gone Easter outfit shopping, shopped for Easter presents, played outside and done laundry, laundry, laundry.

I keep meaning to clean Maggie's bedroom which rivals any mess I had as a child. But I've yet to do it. It will take a lot of time and I just don't want to sit in that room by myself and work on it.

I have spent much time in contemplation of the struggles that two of my girlfriends (Kate and Em) are now going through. My heart is aching for them. I don't know what to do and that is an unfamiliar (or just uncomfortable) feeling for me. I want to help. If I knew it would make a difference, I would drive to WI and MI to do something...anything. But there isn't anything. There is just pain and emptiness and the bitter disappointment every month that reminds them of the lack of control we have on our own lives. We all feel this desperation at times in our lives, but very rarily do we have to be hit in the face with the reality of it all, over and over, month by month. So I'm consumed with thoughts of what to do. Nothing. I have to sit and wait, just like them and hope and pray for the best.

I hope the rest of you are staying happy and healthy. I miss you all and hope to hear from you soon. I'd love to have you here to join me for a cup of coffee at our local coffee shop. Think about it!


Em said...

It means so much to know that you are there, standing beside me, as I struggle. You have such a big heart, and I have appreciated again hearing your perspective and knowing that you are supporting and praying for me. Thank you so you. :)

Kind of an exciting month with have ahead, though, right? With St. Patty's Day and Easter? I hope that you're able to get all those unending tasks complete and can enjoy some fun times with the kids for the upcoming holidays. We are "skipping" Easter again this year, because so much of what is great about these holidays is having excited kids to share it with. How bitter does that sound, eh?

Kate said...

To echo what Em said, I too want to say thank you. It means the world to me to have you by my side, there to listen, there to offer support and advice. I can not tell you enough how much you mean to me.

I can completely relate to your feelings about cleaning Maggie's room. I have the exact same feelings about our den/office. I need to just get in there and get it done, but man do I dread it!

Sounds like you guys are getting ready for Easter, can't wait to see the kids in their outfits! Does Millie have a new outfit for the occasion too??

Michele said...

Aubrey -
I can totally relate to you in this post. Especially, the title... that's me! I am feeling the same way, not sure how to help Em or Kate. I feel like I don't word things the way that I would like to say them, and I do not want to say anything hurtful. Sometimes, I find myself reading their blogs and not posting, in fear that I may unintentionally say/type something hurtful. I feel like I should be helping out more, but I am unsure of what to do that would help. Like you are, I am waiting and praying also. I hope the best for all of you guys. I miss you all so much and can't wait to see you all again soon!!
It's really nice to "catch up" with you guys by reading your posts.

Kate said...

Michele, don't ever wory about saying the wrong thing. I think I can speak for both Em and I when I say that just having you guys in our lives has helped so much. You have both offered so much strength and support and we are so greatful for your friendships.
Love you guys!